Tuesday, April 10, 2012

A beautiful mess

They told me once, that being nice to everyone is essential,
They lied.
I tried to be nice to everyone and they turned their back on me when I needed them the most,
They told me once, that revenge is worthless.
They lied.
I tried to let bygones be bygones and they said that I was weak.
They told me once, that I should never bother what others are saying about you,
They lied again.
I deafen my ears, closed my eyes and walk straight ahead, but it was just getting worse.
They told me once again, that being quiet doesn't mean you're weak; it implies the opposite.
Again, they lied.
I tried to let it go, but it haunts me even worse I ran faster..

They told me, "You're not weak. You're a strong young woman."
Apparently they do not know the limit that I could take.
I choked up, I found it hard to swallow all of these hardships at once.
Could I be wrong?

They did not lie.
Humble heart is to be appreciated for better or worse;
They said that God sees his beloved and He knows a humble heart and He adores it.
They did not lie.
Forgiveness is only to be given out from a humble heart;
To forgive is to forget. Forgiveness is not a sign of weakness; forgiveness is a strength and forgiveness takes courage.
Again, they did not lie.
Silence isn't soundless; but silence can be the loudest cry.

They say trust is just like a mirror.
Once it is broken, it cannot be as perfect as it was..
Perfectly imperfect, but it cannot reflects the same way as it did.
I can be broken so many times and I won't reflect the person I was,
but I can draw a beautiful reflection of a better person.

A very much better person that one day they'll say,
"Look at her, she is now a strong woman."
And one day, they'll be proud of me.