When I'm good, I'm good. When I'm bad, I'm better.

One last post before Spring breaks kickstart!

Was reading Joyce's blog and thought to myself, yeah, natalie, what are you good at?

and I'm like... .__________________.

but no. I'm forcing myself to list at least one or two things that I can say on what I am good at before I hit the shower and fly back to Indo! -nope, not listing all negative things I am good at, cus trust me, the list can go on to the infinity and beyond! -

started thinking at 8pm sharp

1. I'm good at......

._________________.

giving up at 8.30

The Hardest Thing

"Hey, I miss your smile..
I don't see it so often anymore nowadays, Natalie.
I know you are going through so many things lately
and those things have taken too much of the person I used to know.
I know it is not easy,
but I've been trying to help you, even when you don't notice it, but I'm here..
I know you feel as if you are lost, N;
you withdraw yourself from your friends, cus you feel like you don't belong
you isolate yourself from those circle, your insecurity just eat you up;
you lock yourself in your room everyday,
cus that's where you feel safe and sound..

But that doesn't mean that you should erase your smile, N
cus that is one beautiful smile you have
and I don't want to see you not wearing it anymore.
It is too precious to be vanished over a small matter like this,
crying over it won't solve anything..
I hate seeing those tears streaming down your face, I really do.
I wish I you really see, that I am here for you.
I know you always feel like you're alone, but I'm here.
You don't see it but I am here.

So please,
don't erase that smile from your face..
wear it and just forget the world for once, and for all.
you mean a lot to many, don't let some bring you down;
and remember - to pray, to love and to be happy.
because you mean a lot to many."

someone said this and I just can't help it..

Getting Inked

I've always wanted to get a tattoo. There is always an opportunity and the urge to enter one of the tattoo shops I find, but there is also this nudge of hesitance; what if I want more than just one tattoo ?

I've heard before that getting a tattoo is almost like trying a new drug, you can get addicted to it that you won't stop after just one tattoo. I have few piercings and I could tolerate the pain, and they make me more scared to get inked - that I won't stop after just one tattoo. :x

I wanna do quotes or a word. Because quotes that touch me always alerts me of what's going on, what have been going on, what went on and what will go on. I have a lot of favorite quotes I fancy that I am confused. Here are they:


"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference." - The famous serenity prayer. Definitely this one will always remind me of how I should forever and always rely on God no matter what

"For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven; " - Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

Nicole's handwriting of "love" - this would be the cutest and unique tats ever, but what if she sees it and wants one too? Who knows you know, she's full of surprise ;)

Hope, Strength and Courage - These three things are always getting tested and I keep repeating the same starting line.

"this too, shall pass" - A quote that will always remind me of how nothing is permanent in this world, not even our problems. So everytime I am on my down phase, I will be reminded that it will soon begone. A strengthening quote, really.


and the list would probably go on and my confusion will soon grow as well. but who knows. Maybe one day I find the courage to just go for it and get one. (;